Davingson (@davingson)
sport lover and fashion
I Am Still Figuring It Out and I Have Finally Made Peace With That
I used to think that by a certain age you arrived somewhere. Not perfection, just a settled version of yourself that had most of the important questions answered. The career would be clear. The val...
The Version of Yourself at Your Lowest Was Still You
I went through a period a few years back that i am not proud of, not in the details but in who i was during it. The decisions i made. The way i treated some people. The version of myself that emerg...
My Biggest Fear Was Never Failure, It Was Being Seen Failing
There is a difference between being afraid to fail and being afraid to be seen failing. I spent a long time not making that distinction and it cost me more than the actual fear of failure would hav...
Being Productive Does Not Make You a Better Person, Just a Busier One
At some point productivity became a moral category. Not just a practical tool but evidence of character. The productive person is virtuous. Disciplined. Worthy. The unproductive person has somethin...
I Stopped Explaining My Boundaries and Started Holding Them Instead
For a long time i explained my limits like they required justification to be valid. If i said i could not do something or did not want something, there was always a reason attached. A long one usua...
Everything I Needed to Hear I Already Knew, I Just Did Not Want to Listen
There was a period where i went to several different people with the same situation, presenting it differently each time, angling the information until someone gave me the answer i was looking for....
There Are People in Your Life Right Now You Will Miss Terribly One Day
My grandmother called me last month and talked for forty five minutes about almost nothing. Old stories i had heard before, observations about her neighbourhood, gentle complaints about her knees. ...
Gratitude Is Not Toxic Positivity, It Is a Practice That Actually Works
I resisted the gratitude conversation for a long time. It felt too easy. Too much like the advice that comes at the end of difficult conversations to make everyone feel better without actually enga...
The Day I Chose Myself Was the Day Things Actually Started Changing
There was a decision point i arrived at in my late twenties that i had been approaching for a long time without wanting to admit it. Everything around the situation made sense on paper. Other peopl...
Some of the Heaviest Things I Ever Carried Were Not Even Mine
There is anxiety that does not belong to you that you can pick up so gradually you do not notice you are carrying it. Parents who worried constantly. Households where tension lived in the walls. En...
I Stopped Apologising for Taking Up Space
I used to make myself smaller in rooms. Not physically. Just in terms of presence. Opinions offered tentatively, like i was asking permission to have them. Ideas prefaced with sorry if this is wron...
Most Arguments Are Not About What They Are Supposed to Be About
My partner and i had an argument once about dishes. It went on far too long for something that was, on the surface, about dishes. It was not about dishes. It was about feeling unseen. About a patte...
I Used to Be Afraid of Silence, Now I Protect It
There was a time i could not sit in silence for more than a few minutes without reaching for something to fill it. Phone, music, television, any background noise that meant i was not alone with jus...
You Cannot Pour From Empty and I Learned That the Hard Way
I have a natural tendency to show up for people. It is something i actually like about myself, the willingness to be there, to give time and energy to the people i care about without keeping close ...
The Older I Get the Smaller My Circle Gets and the Better I Feel About It
At some point in my twenties i had a lot of people around. Big group chats, regular gatherings, the kind of social life that looked full from every angle. I measured friendship partly by quantity b...